Beisbol in Havana. Only difference between them and me was a plane ticket home.

Beisbol in Havana


Taxi a 59 Chevrolet southwest to see Los Sancti Spiritus
Contra Los Industriales de Habana: Baseball played quicker
From the throat, with carafes of hot sugared coffee for twenty cents
Quien sabe who won in the clammy Caribbean shirt-stick night
If only the future played like beisbol in Havana

But the rum, smuggled in and swigged in stands, the earthen voices
Summiting in aisles to argue stats, a fan’s fat rooster perched
Proud and tethered by the foul ball seats of the first base line
Hailed in heat by flesh and grins and palms when called out
As Americanos, rum entre amigos, up and over and into us

Mezclado con cafe, rum, hits, rum, steals, rum, runs, enough rum
Walking four colonial miles to an Old Center with an Afro-Cuban teen
Wanting English and a way out, his flip flops will not prevent metal
Rising sharp and unexpectedly from the sidewalk from gashing his foot
Groaning forward anyway like beisbol in Havana

Limping on, talking about his daughter, Luna, who is far away
Detained twice for his ID by Los Nacionales.  He tells me es normal
Passing a fallen balcony chunk in the street, ambulance freshly gone
Onlookers conjuring the woman, bits of her flesh and hair enmeshed
On the concrete, rum among us mumbling like a funeral in an arc

Meet an Ivy League American, arrogante, son of a famous man
He says, paying friends to haul bats and gloves for kids. Three days later
I will see them broke and nervous, prostitutes have stolen their wallets
They’ve sold the equipment cheap and seen Consular Officials
Who speak of motives like beisbol in Havana

Hungry, searching, owner wields me into his club, orders a jinatera
Who saddles up, ravenous, leaning, until she knows I’m just eating
Without dessert. Cheated on the bill, I protest.  Owner wields me out
But the game: The coffee, stats and rooster, red as a dirt mound
How the field lights blinded rather than shone, and the rum

No one smiled in Chicago on Black Friday after the video was released

No One Smiles in Chicago on Black Friday After the Video is Released


Not on solitary runners pounding Lakeshore Drive
Not in the iced, glib and flowered patisseries
Not at the universities busied in status and cures
Not when sun strikes Trump Towers’ wide face

Something in Chicago is amiss: No one wears a smile
Today, Black Friday, not one stretched or pursed
Across face-masked police, proud and shamed
Not on the Westin’s bel hops, The Palmer’s Concierge

Not glossed and hanging at the Museum of Contemporary Art
Not on Chicago’s pigeons spinning on tin spires
Not at Lululemon’s or anywhere inside Neiman Marcus
Not at the stone Drake, its valets passing winces to the street

Not at Prada, or the vast interior of the Board of Trade
Not outside, where rare birds stock the trees one at a time
Not north through Old Town past what we shall admire in the past
Not in Second City, lips sewn shut since last night’s slipshod laughs

Not one smile flashed smug by those lugging bags
Slick and blazoned bags fit for housing refugees
From the better venues of that Magnificence Mile
Where linked arms boldly coerce shoppers to halt

Chanting “Shut it down! 16 Shots!” into that great street
Scuffling with a Chinese tourist bound for Louis Vuitton
In the city of broad arrogance, where secrecy steams through grills
In alluring alleyways bearing tricks and highs for six bucks

Laquan hallucinating down center divider for kicks
Ward of the State, breaking and entering, stabbing
The squad car tire with a pocketknife, rash and poor
Aiming crooked before bending awkward at the hips

Dropping back and sideways to the asphalt, puffs exiting Laquan
In Chicago, where the wind turns corners, ripping marble fascia
And dashing it without apology to the street. Where it blows cups
Into the River. Cups from Starbucks, from lobbies, from beggars

Cups of the rich into the River Chicago, where no children play
Died green river of no banks, no frogs, no rushes, no bends
River Shikaakwa of the Potawatomi, Miami, Sauk and Fox
Bathing careless in the river near their sharpened points, faces

Changing contorted as Jean Baptiste Point du Sable rides up
To be the first settler, a black man, possibly on a Friday
On horseback carrying in his hands a stake, and on his face
An expression they would tell stories about for years to come

How his face looked, in Chicago

For the citizens of Paris. Pour les citoyens de Paris

Joie and History


Almost nothing can be written that hasn’t been wrought
Paris stands abreast myriad brush and keyboard plot
Blood’s run in the streets before but that was very then
I hesitate to sleep to wake and find the death toll bend

You’re the peoples’ jewel since seventeen eighty-nine
Your cobbles touch the feet of miserable and fine
Your corps has long accepted quite a moribund pastiche
But Sartre just bumped his head when bombs were switched

Who can take away l’esprit and gallant Parisian light
But the ones who choose to be the Paris of the night?
I will wander soon with you and dawdle in your lanes
To breathe your lively mists that joie and history claim

Compelling, however insufficient

Compelling, However Insufficient


How humble birth, how uncle, how single mom [how jeans, unfit for the twenty-first century]
Sagging                        insufficient for the Arresting Officer


How the unconscious, an aggravation, Sir                 [how confused, unforeseen, out-of-focus]
Burdens         babbling night terrored preschool memories


How the sap too slow, the roots too wound                 [how winds panic through the branches]
Strewn                          above a tattered wet hanging cord


How a brother, neighborhood, posse                        [como la escuela que no lleve aprovechar]
No importa                                ni papas al oficio del arresto


How the cuffs, ignorant, video cams, blind           [how a squad car’s blinking iridescent blue]
                                           Commiserates           without empathic effect in the police                                    report


How ma lawif, ma hol damn lawif                               [how ingathering words are inadequate]
                                               Compelling          however insufficient for the Arresting                      
                                     Officer

Perspective provides empathy

Ants Float


Hug my son to A)
Hug my son and B)
Sniff for marijuana
Pour a cup of water

10 day head cold, throat
What does it mean when
Snot is lime?  How far
Ahead will my heart attack?

Sleep in the guest room
Away from disgust, tumbling
Blankets from the closet
Cascading in the dark

Pour a cup of water
From the Brita® jug
There is refuge in pure
Unadultered water

Refuge in pure water

6 months late on taxes
Unscored essays scream
From their perfect piles
18 jars of jam didn’t jam

To be a refugee without
Country, calm & blankets
Planning the crossing
Preparing the children

Will it matter much that
He toked a bit, that jam
Runs, that soreness, piles
Brokenness, disgust?

There is refuge in water

What is the tribal equivalent of casserole consolation?

Casseroles


Everyone is cooking up and down the street
Occupied with recipes for dealing with

When one dies, flowers and casserole
When born, cards and casserole

Casserole, how one copes in the Midwest
Rectangular, glass dishes, slicing perimeters

Before cutting squares.  We have eaten
One another after surgery, a dead pet

Bites of consolation, peering at flowers
Masticating the toil of unknown neighbors

Then meditating, all of us, once or twice
Eating the casserole. Enchilada. Tuna &

Noodles Whatnot.  This time it is our porch
Loaded with frozen glass, covered in foil

Our turn to place on a rack, slice neat
Squares through the bubbling dish, eat

Confessions of a history teacher

Confessions of a History Teacher
                                                                      

I’m hearing voices about the Gettysburg Address
Confused, Kennedy’s daughter is Ambassador to Japan
Wishing I could quote more Churchill, Nehru

How trivial, history, keeping me out of the street
Where my boys squander evenings on soccer
Pages of time, inconsequential, 911, Bay of Pigs

Seized by Cold War, Mao Zedong, genocides
Unable to talk with my wife about the dishes
How much more meaning to watch the flames

Catatonic, than read interminable books
Capture perfect arches of kicked balls in sky
Than page through the past when now shrieks

Unsure how this arose

Both


Is both a concept or a word?
It is both

Subdue it in the hind of brain
Or ride it?

Invite it up on your lap 
Tell it to get down

Both
Both

Both is bad polka and songs
That make you bow in tears

Both is bed, firm, anticipated
And sweaty undercovers

Both

Both is what you follow
Yet it follows you about

Search the galley for some wine
Impatient with the cost of waves

Both is in the bars
Yet bars you on the couch

Churchill told us we are tossed
If not intent on goal

In the walnut tree they cling or fall
Beautiful or painful

Both

Between dripping, jaded cliffs and the swollen depths

The Grey Question 


   Sinking to our ankles
We are lowered by waves
 From our cliff heights to be
      Tickled by sand crabs
   Sixteen and forty-six
Son and Father both
 At Big Sur’s brine
      Absorbed by the surge
   Two sands crawl apart
Lights drop in troughs
 Black sands on ridges
      Blurring again in drift

   Separated in the run of tide
Feet washed by the rush
 Humbled by the sinking
      Toss and roiled churn
   Where rolling otters guzzle
In the upper lips of waves
 And elephant seals straddle
      Fat across the landscape
   Where sunk gods rise with
Gleaming guanoed peaks
 Splashed with the curious
      Spinal curves of cormorants

   If I could rewind sixteen
Years with what you share
 With me now I would not
      Have had it done to you
   Calculating the sands     
How was I to know
 You would not want
      To be circumcised?
   How are we to know
How far is safe, from
 Dripping, jaded cliffs
      And the swollen depths?

That is the grey question of the ocean

Wouldn't you rather be...?

Best Water Activities in and around New York City
At The Public Pool


Swiping black skins viscous as turtle licks
Water spit in arcs by euro boys, by brown boys
Stealing slick glances at lifeguard legs
Swooshing below the carbonated foam
At the public pool

Contrary to public opinion at Shorewood
(Members Only. Seven hundred per family)
There are no riots at the public pool
Tasers unholstered nor dogs unleashed
At the public pool

No “Where do you live?”  No report cards
Or talk of college visits. The children simply
Believe in water, the water is everywhere
Your kids are everywhere in the world
At the public pool

Mothers in lots of skin, tattooed, puffing
Two-pieced acumen on the shrewd grass
Their children’s toes are getting raw
On reduced ticket prices with a free hot dog
At the public pool

When guards blow whistles they scan the bottom
As the surface grows to glass and everyone
Slick and full and burned dreams of Dollar Tree
Benidiciones de pura vida de la piscina
At the public pool

Squeal if you want, watch the glistening flesh
Freedom and goosebumps and cigarette smoke
Just hide it under your towel and you can dunk
Under the same ochre sun
At the public pool

When you are nineteen. (A memoir)

The Line


It’s when you cross the line
Jerk back over, a near miss, pull
Off the highway O my god O my
God O my god in a citrus grove
Turn off your engine, say sorry
So sorry, caught up in talking
Under the mountains, the moon
Illumines every leaf, and then,
Catching your breath, your eyes
Wide at the re-engaging crickets

When you kiss with the emergency
Brake gouging into your thigh
Her hair soft and blond and punk
(Like it’s not even there) Yours
Is wet, boastful, curly and long
Your name is Awkwa this summer
Sneaking Dining Hall cheesecakes
Immersing the body in the stream
Guitaring songs into the woods
To warn the bear it will be shot

Tree sap chocolate dust
Go backpacking alone above
Treeline. Forget parents’ visit
Another girl, Naomi, waitress
At the Main Camp dining room
Hair straight black and long
Will write you 12 page letters
For seven years until you walk
The streets of Santa Barbara
Forlorn she's gained since

Kissing her on the steps over-
Looking folds of the valley
Hold yourself down lengthwise
In the current. Cry for the bear
Cramp-up swimming to the middle
Of pond, half drown at 19
Alive with envy, ego, repression
Recognizing none of it, running
Across needles strewn under
Outstretched arms of sugar pine

Strange as it may seem
Each girl is better than
The last, less shallow
Exponentially more sexy
Young and lean and wild,
Like the bear, adolescent
Chasing it uphill with stones
And screams to stay away
In the wilderness, but it
Will cross that line

A history of the United States, from a book published in 1847

A History of the United States


In my arms, like a baby, an old book
Her spine is leather, cracked yet supple
From Keen, Jr. & Brother, Bookvendors
No. 146 Lake Street, Chicago
A History of the United States

Between pages 314 and 315 a flower
Is pressed, and “an awful silence”
Prevails among the spectators
And girls line the road with garlands
To sing an ode for the troops

In the Appendix, weapons, ships, officers
Headquarters of the General-in-Chief, Washington
Those of the Western Department are at Memphis
Fifty-one sea going vessels, an Army of 7,168
With a militia of 1,311,569

Engraved campaigns, captures, evacuations
Jackson ordered to reduce Seminoles, page 395
Gracing our twenties, hair like a flag, since 1928
When the Dow blew while reservations slept
In corners of smoke and dust and still

In the Appendix, charts of Indians, 1836
Removed:  31,357.   To be removed:  72,181
Between the Mississippi and the Rockies: 150,341
Says the Secretary of War, “…the Indians are totally
Ignorant of their own relative strength…”

The book, for sale while at War with Mexico
The one Thoreau refused to pay for
Polk’s, Buena Vista, Taylor, Santa Ana
But the book ends, page 435.  We will  
Storm Chapultepec.  Gain California

When Fremont raises a grizzly bear flag
At Monterey. Then the Gold Rush & Chinese
Ishi the last Yahi, and I will be born
There a hundred twenty years later
During Vietnam

In the Appendix, populations in columns
1830: 102,994 slaves reside in Maryland
In the back of a Baltimore police van
The spinal column of Freddie Gray is severed
One hundred and eighty-five years later

What is our country’s history without murder
Land, gold and little wars?--page eighty-eight
Built by the pious sweat of pioneers
On a generous earth, with faith in our arms
Cradling God in our books

iHop, Rainer Maria Rilke and work













Es Muss Sein

                “To work is to live without dying”
                                   -Rainer Maria Rilke


Late at work again.  Up early 
Thinking about it on the weekend
I’d rather be Madison’s Nazi Poet
Than a workaholic.  Then again,
                es muss sein

If only Rainer Maria Rilke and I
Could sit across an orange iHop table
With Jimi Hendrix and Supertramp
After the dinner rush and be off

To wonder upon the photo of the fried
Appetizer Sampler Plate, how each
Onion ring, cheese stick, chicken strip
Could not be fathomed by Empires lost

When the forested realms held spinning
Looms and hunger while God was afloat
In paintings and iHop was an egg waiting
Deep in the womb of want

The line to stand up straight is clock
The quota boss bangs his fist for more
Work, an indispensable grief.  Chop wood
Carry Chains, Backache, Pus, et cetera

Aprons swish and sweep the floor 
We are off, digging fried finger foods
Rilke has no idea I have read his poems
On a screen like a high-gloss menu

He gawks with a starved animal gaze
As the waitress serves and bends, her
Apron soiled and tight around her trunk
As old world as any woman at any time

I do not bother to explain the Rolling
Stones to Rainer or black on black crime
Or why his words about the waitress’ body
Were meant for another century

To work is to live without dying
That condition by which we know ourselves
Sages whisper in each ear, but they
Have always been unemployed